I actually need to tend to bills, laundry, and cleaning the kitchen but I had to jump on here and write this down. I never want to forget. I have so many moments throughout the day of raising the boys that are just so incredibly beautiful I get tears in my eyes just thinking about it! I know, I know....I'm one whipped mama. Anyway, so here goes:
John was home for the first time in a few days so it was DADDY MANIA and ALL THINGS DADDY when he stopped working tonight. They follow him around like he is a superstar. In their eyes, he is. It is actually the sweetest thing. I told him the other day to enjoy every minute because it will not always be this way. Anyway, back to the story - when John stopped working we ate dinner and then let the guys ride their tricycles out on the street as John & I walked beside them. This is a new endeavor for them by the way (thanks to John's friend, Farris, but that is a different story!) and they think they are "hot stuff" when they ride on the street. I think it makes them feel so big. They love it. Anyway, we had alot of time with Daddy and after the ride we came back upstairs for pajamas, brushing teeth, story, and bed. John needed to go fill up our boat with gas and drop it in the water b/c we have family coming in tomorrow to stay the weekend and we really wanted to get it done so we can take it out to dinner tomorrow night. When John tells the boys he has to go run an errand poor Brayden gets REALLY upset. SCREAMING UPSET. John decides to stay (we debate about whether this sets a good precedent - "I scream and Daddy stays" but whatever...) and put on his jammies. He does this and Bray cries again but this time Daddy leaves without a long goodbye. Brayden then says to me "Mommy, I wanna snuggle". I say "sure sweetie, come here" and he wants me to wrap him up in his blanket (for the past couple of days we've been doing this thing where I wrap them up in their blankets "like babies" and sing rock-a-bye baby). I hold him close on my lap and just hold him and hold him and rock him back and forth. And then he looks up at me and says, "I feel better now Mommy". My heart melted. I love my son. I love my family. I love motherhood. What an honor to watch these little guys grow. Who knows what will happen or how their lives will play out. I imagine they will have a lot of laughs and some heartache mixed in there. They will probably play with different identities and try on different friends. The list of possibilities is endless. I'm sure John & I are in for the ride of a lifetime. But no matter what, they will always be my babies. They will always be loved. I hope to one day help them figure out just how valuable they really are. How precious and unique. And that they each have God-given abilities that are a little different from anyone else's in the world. They will not solve the world's problems, but I want them to know they matter and they can make a difference.
