How did this happen?

It's been a while.  I'm tired.  Exhausted is more like it.  We are back to bedtime troubles -- something I thought we got rid of a long time ago.  The boys have decided that they do NOT want to settle down and go to sleep for either nap or bed time.  This does not make for a Happy Mama.  I want to be a Happy Mama.  Night Night guys, I say.  And that's when the crying begins.  They need one more kiss, one more hug, one more high five, one more tuck in.   The list is endless.... Let's just say I am not so great at 3AM high fives.  Mama needs sleep.  Perhaps God is warning me that now is not the best time to try for baby #4?  Those middle of the night feedings are tough.  I'm not gonna lie or sugar-coat it.

Other than our sleep(less) adventure things are actually great.  I'm very content and happy to be exactly where I am.  It's a great feeling actually.  When we lived in Nova I always wanted to move and kind of felt like we should be somewhere else.  I feel at home here.  In Wilmington, yes, but also with my life in general.  At home with my husband, my beautiful children, my friends, my day to day routine, my life outside of my family.  It fits together and I love it.  It's nice to go to sleep and know that there is really nowhere else in the world you'd rather be.  How incredible.  What a blessing.  Thank you, God.